On being a better man

I've never claimed to know what it is a woman wants, and for those of you close to me who know what I am going through, you know why I am writing this. The house is so quite the weeks I don't have the kids. I am thinking of selling, but am still going to be stuck nearly a thousand miles away from friends and family. I don't know why part of me still holds on hope that there is some fragment of my marriage that is salvageable, but we have been separated for 5 months now, and she has no interest of returning. I know I should meet other people, but Danielle has been my one and only. I don't know how to not be her husband anymore. I pity the poor fool who I get involved with next simply because they are going to be in for more drama than they care to get into, lol! I've played around with the online dating thing, but currently haven't had any luck, either not good looking enough or not interesting enough I don't know. The separation status makes it hard to get close to someone else. I feel like I am getting sore from sitting on this fence, and maybe I should take a hint that there is only one side that I can get off on. Still she has my promise and I am trying to be there for her the best way that I can. Tonight she is going on her first serious date (minus the casual fucks along the way). I know this is a sign that she has moved on. The fact that she can be intimate with other people says this. Why do I still linger?